Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Theresa (aka reese reese)'s LiveJournal:

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Thursday, June 16th, 2005
8:41 pm	I miss Eastman...a lot...already... I miss having the stability of knowing where I belong and knowing I have a job to do. In the long run I know all of this. I belong with my music and my job, put in a very cheesy way, is to serve music to the best of my capability. I feel like i'm being pulled in two different directions...One pulling me towards moving on, however depressing that may be, and the other pulling me back...back to something i still don't feel i've finished. College is going to be so different...so much more work. Work that i'm excited to do but yet a bit apprehensive about. Everyone has always talked about how kick ass their senior summer was...but you know what? I don't see it doing anything but--sucking. I have this constant feeling of anxiety, like i should be doing something...And i'm nervous, and nostalgic, and curious all at the same time! But why the FUCK can't i be excited????????????????? Why, not in the least bit??? Why can't i be like everybody else???? Wow. I need to calm myself. My dad gave me a huge speech today...like he does everyday...but today what it basically came down to was that he didn't believe in what i'm doing...that really put a damper on the day...as you can see. Current Mood: aggravated (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 12th, 2005
11:17 pm	Crackle-crackle-pop. Okay, so I know I haven't updated in........okay forever! But now I will end all of your sorrows by coming back with a bang! (Not really though...don't have much to bang about) I just returned from a lovely little bonfire gathering at Fuck Ass's place...Pictures of which I will post tomorrow. Does anyone remember when Grace's dad almost set all of Avon on fire??? Oh, those were the days. Hmmm, now that I think about it some of the best times i've ever had were around fires... Does that make me a pyro? Like....sacrificial burnings of the Toys-r-Us giraffe, x-files burning party, leaving grace with the beer bottle and my grandfather...Fire=Good. Anyways! Tomorrow is tomorrow....and tonight is tonight...and for now I'm going to go find something better to do than waste space on the world wide web. Current Music: Ben Folds (Comment on this)
Friday, June 3rd, 2005
9:51 pm	KFC I don't want to audition on bassoon. I don't want to make reeds. I, don't, want, to. DAMN IT. Yeah thats all I have to say. Except that the chickens were awesome. Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 2nd, 2005
10:48 pm	Hamburger and an order of.....flies. My last chorus concert ever. Well....at least in Avon that is. I was doing quite good until Mrs. Towler turned to me and said "Someday, I hope you get that MET contract you want Theresa....." yup. pretty much lost it there. The old women still finds a way to my heart after all this time. Hmph. I think thats the first time it hit me, that these next few weeks might be a little bit bitter sweet. We've come a long way folks....a long, long, way. I love you Jenny Bear, and emily froome, and anna, and bethany, and....who am I forgeting? Emily baker of course! .............and OF COURSE I love courtney like a fat boy loves cake. Have a night full of wonderful dreams my loves! Theresa. PS....Tonight was the worst performance I have given all year.....except for my sicky auditions. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Do you hear the people sing?!!?!?!??! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 1st, 2005
10:22 pm	Yeah.............I don't so much want to wear a PROM DRESS to my CHORUS CONCERT tomorrow night...I really could do without that. Can't I just show up in jeans and a t-shirt for one of my recitals? Oh God, who am I kidding, I don't even wear jeans and a t-shirt when I have the chance. But a CHORUS CONCERT come on! I happen to like my traditional black and white attire. My ass rang during AP today and I felt really stupid becuase it happened like three times. When I finally decided to answer it (in a very agitated tone I might add) it happened to be my music theory teacher. (insert confused glance here) She wanted to tell me that we couldn't get together on saturday to go over material for the TEST next week. (yes, I did say TEST...that i'm gong to FAIL) But the most interesting part of the conversation is that I don't quite remember ASKING to get together with her....I let that one slide we all have our off days. Awards assembly was today, long and boring as usual. I also looked through pictures with Leiah...I knew once upon a time I was cute. I HAVE SIX DAYS OF HIGH SCHOOL LEFT. I ate a piece of chocolate...I think i'm getting a double chin. Current Mood: hot. Current Music: Garden State (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 30th, 2005
10:46 pm	There once was a little girl. Who lived in a pretty little world. Where problems seemed managable, Because they only revolved around herself. Sometimes this little girl would wander out into the Real world. Yet each time she found this and that distasteful And slipped back into her own hemisphere Where anything could grow on trees And aspertaime didn't cause cancer. I live in a pretty little world. From time to time I'm dragged out of it, Slapped around a bit and left crying in the dirt. But there it is.... So easy to go back to... Now my time is running out A parking meter I don't have any change left To feed. I'm afraid of the meter fairy.... Current Mood: heartbroken. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 28th, 2005
5:58 pm	So. My computer has officially shit the bed! Now I have to go around to everyone else's to get ANYTHING done. My father is quick to blame it on me...but HELLO it is EIGHT years old!!!!!!! I had such an awesome time on thursday in our recital...Courtney and Maria you were aweeeeeeeeeeeesome! I don't know how I'm going to leave that place. Its not fair. Now i'm going out for coffee with Kerri and I'll see everyone at the music theater performance tomorrow...I'm bracing myself. Adio! Ps--> Today I woke up to beautiful sunshine in my nice clean room at 10 30 am!!!! I haven't 'slept in' for a month and a half!!!!!! Current Mood: happy Current Music: Ginny's oboe playing. (Comment on this)
Monday, May 23rd, 2005
10:18 pm	HeLLo So how is everyone on this fine-freaking-cold-evening??? I'm............cold. I've done absolutely nothing with myself today, though I had plenty that needed to be done...But thats the story of my life now isn't it!!! Well I did get a new diva ring that is RIDICULOUSLY huge and a pair of sunglasses and capris but thats nothing knew either. We have like 12 days of school left and that is CRAZY. I need to get moving on our english paper or, yeah, i'm never gonna get it done. No theory tomorrow! Shweet! But that means that I don't have a lesson and that makes me sad :( Oh well you win some you lose some. So I was telling grace today that I hate talking to people on the phone...especially people who matter like........................cecile. Yeah she never ceases to make me feel like a retard. I was counting....awkward silence # 332. Oh well. I'll get better with time. God this ring is distracting. We need to start senior show. NOW. God night lovelies! Fo. Current Mood: creative Current Music: In my head (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 22nd, 2005
9:48 pm	My recital was sooooooooooooo much fun today! I loved every minute of it! Except my bassoon solo.....that sucked! ROYALY! But oh well! Thanks to all who came! You rock my world! Kisses! Tree. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 17th, 2005
10:50 pm	Theresa = mildly agitated. No...Very agitated. First of all let me start by saying that theory puts me in the worst mood EVER. God! it just pisses me off because its like a domino effect...I'm so happy when i'm done with my lesson then I go up there and know that for a full hour I have to sit there and feel like a complete idiot. Then I'm afraid that my pissy moods put people off and make it seem like I dislike them....or that i'm a bitch....neither of which is true. Still the worst part about this seemingly endless bad mood is the fact that I feel like i'm in purgatory. I can't WAIT to get out of avon....but to tell you the truth, I don't want to go to Ithaca. Its a great school don't get me wrong...Its just not what I want and there's no other way to put it. Everyone is so freakin excited about next year and well......i'm not. How unfair is that. I'm out. Current Mood: angry (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 11th, 2005
9:31 pm	Beautiful Weather Hello Lovlies!!! So I don't know about anyone else but I have been LOVING the weather for the past two days! Its so sunny and warm and flowery! God, I sound pathetic. But its true!!! Prom was freakin awesome I had SUCH a good time and my dearest Anna is the prom queen...How happy I was. I've come to discover that I have a very bad shopping problem. Meaning--I never stop. Senior trip on Friday beyotches!!! I'm freakin excited!!! WOOTWOOT. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 3rd, 2005
9:27 pm	For your listening pleasure!!! ::clears throat:: ~My boyfriend's name is mello He lives in the land of Jello With a cherry for his nose And pickles for his toes And thats the way my story goes!~ -->Dickery, dickery dare, The pig flew up in the air. The man in brown Soon brought him down! Dickery, dickery, dare.<-- Hello Kitty Sang a ditty But I fear it wasn't Pretty They oo'd and aahh'd With much applaud But in the end They thought it odd For she looked at the sky As if to try To kill the buzz Of an annoying fly If that is so Than she must know Why WE watch HER All bouncing too and fro A new nursery rhyme about my least favorite stuffed animal. Current Mood: creative Current Music: Garden State (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 28th, 2005
10:07 pm	Ithaca is............COLD. Well I just returned from a journey to my home for the next four years...Scary isn't it? Its very strange because I thought it would really excite me ya know? Like get me pumped for leaving--as if i could be anymore pumped. But it kind of did the opposite... I think maybe its because I wasn't with my usual crowd of people. I need a diversification. I refuse to hole myself up in the music building and never come out. I want to meet a crap load of people who are cool and worth talking too. The other thing that sucks is the fact that its not lookin like i'm going to be getting a job. Because a music student can end up taking like 13 classes as opposed to the normal 7 or something like that--i'm not really sure i wasn't paying attention. ANYWAYS! I won't have anytime but i NEED MONEY! GAH! The trip made me miss Eastman terribly. Maybe after I sleep in my own bed I will be able to think clearly. My head feels all jumbled around. WTF. Current Mood: confused (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
8:33 pm	Reasons WE want to leave.... This was a list compiled today during school and a certain someone suggested I post in on LJ just for kicks so here it goes! Parents who are always telling me to go to bed Making me come home Telling me how long I've been in the shower Yelling at me for sleeping on the couch Getting all up in my business Giving me the "what are you doing with your life" speeches Feeling like they are always RIGHT behind you Telling me when its okay to turn at an intersection Telling me to start stopping sooner at stop signs Making me feel guilty for not being home Asking me why I'm not doing any homework Wanting me to do something just because you've been "sitting around for a long time" Asking me if I've returned my calls Giving me the guilt trip about money Telling me I can't go outside with out sun screen Talking about grades, school, and homework Teachers giving out busy work Bias teachers Missing 5 days of school and having your parents say you've missed too many Stupid classes Suck-ups Negotiating grades Not doing anything in any classes but still having to go to school Knowing you don't need this anymore Knowing that if you didn't do anything it still wouldn't matter Parents treating me like I'm 5 and thinking I will regress because of this Claustrophobia Rules that are simply there to make people feel that they have authority I don't need at *#@$!&~ hall pass to go someplace (especially the bathroom)! Telling me to shave Telling me to get a hair cut UNDERCLASSMEN (not all of you don't worry) Having every minute of class planned out Small mindedness High School Drama! ACK! Getting out of my lovely bed every morning Wasting 6 hours of my life Eating crappy lunches Uncultured-ness Having to clean up after my family Getting the parental "guilt trip" Feeling like I CAN'T BREATH everyday ! Getting homework I never do Leaving and knowing I have to come back the next day Sunday Nights People who think they are bad ass and ghetto--this is AVON people! A-V-O-N!!! My parents jealousy and cluelessness Waiting until 5th period to drink my diet coke People who stand in the MIDDLE of the hall to talk Dumbing everything down Saying they called when they actually didn't People who are full of it ( it= themselves= shit) Lockers Gym class and the physical fitness test THE SCHOOL POOL High school girls The feeling that college is being held in front of you... Hanging from a stick held by everything that you've ever fought against People that act smarter than they are People with huge mouths People who can't speak simple English People who have a personal story to go with EVERYTHING Going to Eastman Everything consists of doing nothing This town is cursed I do the same thing everyday: sleep and wait for lunch Talking about college Have anything else???? I'm sure you do. Feel free to add! (Believe me, it'll make you feel better!) Current Mood: anxious (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 17th, 2005
6:37 pm	For Real Real I have nothing useful to say...only that I won a thousand dollars...and I suppose thats pretty cool. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
8:43 pm	Back on the slightly less dark side of life Leiah and I went walking today and it was quite nice...We stoped at the St. Agnes playground and I kept telling her all these stories about when I went there...And it just really hit me. Wh-am. I'm going to college next year... I was talking about when i was 7 and the kid who pissed in the tire and my best friend who was a fat boy...and I was like "Holy shit--that is all gone. And i'm going to college. Crazy. But i am so very very excited. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, April 11th, 2005
9:47 pm	Its the worst thing in the world to find out that you're not what you thought you were...and for the smallest moment the world seems to lose its sparkle...it comes back but you realize that it wasn't real and you were living a lie the whole time. I think my hearts actually broken...yup...its missing a hinge. Don't mind my emo-ness...I just needed to get it out. Current Mood: melancholy (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 10th, 2005
7:49 pm	Je Suis Tatania!!! Hello my darlings! So its been a pretty swell weekend! I went to see Chicago on Saturday night, and surprisingly enough it was really really good! Paige Davis isn't half as bad as I expected her to be! Yes, I can definitely see her doing marvolously in Beauty & the Beast but she wasn't gutsy enough to really do justice to Roxy. I also saw Godspell...Hmmm what else??? Oh! I found a lovely little yellow purse at Target and a freakin SWEET jacket...Now I have to figure out when to sneak away and buy them...> given the fact that if my mother catches me buying another purse or coat she'll kill me and feed me to the wild hounds...But thats no matter! A girls got to do what a girls got to do! (Especially for her accesories!) This voice competition is coming up pretty damn fast....I've decided that....I'm gonna win. Yeah...I think so. Hahaha. And i'm gonna be sexy as hell! (Take that Cecile.) ::sticks out toungue:: Why do >I< always get stuck singing the songs where I have to be all "come hither-ish" ? Further more how is singing about trees,the wind, and rivers supposed to be "hot"??? Yeah, I don't know, maybe its better just to leave it alone. I don't want to go to school tomorrow...I just want to sit around an enjoy the sunshine. Damn the system! I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!! Well I have to go finish my homework...too bad I only do it when the marking period is closing. Hey! That means we only have ten weeks left! SHWEET! Current Mood: content Current Music: Darling Renee (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 9th, 2005
11:43 am	Ah-HAHAHA! You are a Soprano... The true diva. Life revolves around you and only you. You've got the high notes they pay for and you hold the world in the palm of your hand. What Voice Type are You? brought to you by Quizilla > This makes my heart happy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
11:03 am	Crazy beautiful Sigh....I love spring. Its like being reborn in Christ! Don't worry just kidding. But I do love spring we've had so many nice days and I don't even mind the rain...just as long as its not snow! Took a little road trip downtown yesterday it was quite amusing I also found out that Spot is accepting applications....If gas wasn't so damn expensive I'd do it. Working there would be the shiz. I do need a job though one that doesn't require couting bottles OR beans. Divas can't be poor--it just doesn't work that way. How many days until we graduate??? Too many. The only draw back to all this b-e-a-utiful weather is the fact that it gets me thinking about Summer. Summer is going to kick major ass. I want a reuben. I love you all. PS Courtney I'm SO sorry I couldn't come to your show! It was my cousin's birthday and I totally forgot! I LOVE YOU DAHLING AND I'M SURE YOU WERE STUNNING! Current Mood: chipper Current Music: My own voice (1 Comment |Comment on this)