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crem_de_la_flem @ 2005-06-16T20:41:00

2005-06-17T00:36:06Z

I miss Eastman...a lot...already... I miss having the stability of knowing where I belong and knowing I have a job to do. In the long run I know all of this. I belong with my music and my job, put in a very cheesy way, is to serve music to the best of my capability. I feel like i'm being pulled in two different directions...One pulling me towards moving on, however depressing that may be, and the other pulling me back...back to something i still don't feel i've finished.
College is going to be so different...so much more work. Work that i'm excited to do but yet a bit apprehensive about. Everyone has always talked about how kick ass their senior summer was...but you know what? I don't see it doing anything but--sucking. I have this constant feeling of anxiety, like i should be doing something...And i'm nervous, and nostalgic, and curious all at the same time! But why the FUCK can't i be excited????????????????? Why, not in the least bit??? Why can't i be like everybody else???? Wow. I need to calm myself.
My dad gave me a huge speech today...like he does everyday...but today what it basically came down to was that he didn't believe in what i'm doing...that really put a damper on the day...as you can see.

Crackle-crackle-pop.

2005-06-13T03:25:19Z

Okay, so I know I haven't updated in........okay forever! But now I will end all of your sorrows by coming back with a bang! (Not really though...don't have much to bang about) I just returned from a lovely little bonfire gathering at Fuck Ass's place...Pictures of which I will post tomorrow. Does anyone remember when Grace's dad almost set all of Avon on fire??? Oh, those were the days. Hmmm, now that I think about it some of the best times i've ever had were around fires... Does that make me a pyro? Like....sacrificial burnings of the Toys-r-Us giraffe, x-files burning party, leaving grace with the beer bottle and my grandfather...Fire=Good. Anyways! Tomorrow is tomorrow....and tonight is tonight...and for now I'm going to go find something better to do than waste space on the world wide web.

KFC

2005-06-04T01:52:44Z

I don't want to audition on bassoon. I don't want to make reeds. I, don't, want, to. DAMN IT. Yeah thats all I have to say.

Except that the chickens were awesome.

Hamburger and an order of.....flies.

2005-06-03T02:37:15Z

My last chorus concert ever. Well....at least in Avon that is. I was doing quite good until Mrs. Towler turned to me and said "Someday, I hope you get that MET contract you want Theresa....." yup. pretty much lost it there. The old women still finds a way to my heart after all this time. Hmph. I think thats the first time it hit me, that these next few weeks might be a little bit bitter sweet. We've come a long way folks....a long, long, way.

I love you Jenny Bear, and emily froome, and anna, and bethany, and....who am I forgeting? Emily baker of course!

.............and OF COURSE I love courtney like a fat boy loves cake.

Have a night full of wonderful dreams my loves!

Theresa.

PS....Tonight was the worst performance I have given all year.....except for my sicky auditions.

crem_de_la_flem @ 2005-06-01T22:22:00

2005-06-02T02:12:23Z

Yeah.............I don't so much want to wear a PROM DRESS to my CHORUS CONCERT tomorrow night...I really could do without that. Can't I just show up in jeans and a t-shirt for one of my recitals? Oh God, who am I kidding, I don't even wear jeans and a t-shirt when I have the chance. But a CHORUS CONCERT come on! I happen to like my traditional black and white attire.
My ass rang during AP today and I felt really stupid becuase it happened like three times. When I finally decided to answer it (in a very agitated tone I might add) it happened to be my music theory teacher. (insert confused glance here) She wanted to tell me that we couldn't get together on saturday to go over material for the TEST next week. (yes, I did say TEST...that i'm gong to FAIL) But the most interesting part of the conversation is that I don't quite remember ASKING to get together with her....I let that one slide we all have our off days.
Awards assembly was today, long and boring as usual. I also looked through pictures with Leiah...I knew once upon a time I was cute. I HAVE SIX DAYS OF HIGH SCHOOL LEFT. I ate a piece of chocolate...I think i'm getting a double chin.

crem_de_la_flem @ 2005-05-30T22:46:00

2005-05-31T02:36:37Z

There once was a little girl.
Who lived in a pretty little world.
Where problems seemed managable,
Because they only revolved around herself.

Sometimes this little girl would wander out into the
Real world.
Yet each time she found this and that distasteful
And slipped back into her own hemisphere
Where anything could grow on trees
And aspertaime didn't cause cancer.

I live in a pretty little world.
From time to time I'm dragged out of it,
Slapped around a bit and left crying in the dirt.

But there it is....
So easy to go back to...

Now my time is running out
A parking meter I don't have any change left
To feed.

I'm afraid of the meter fairy....

So.

2005-05-28T22:02:28Z

My computer has officially shit the bed! Now I have to go around to everyone else's to get ANYTHING done. My father is quick to blame it on me...but HELLO it is EIGHT years old!!!!!!! I had such an awesome time on thursday in our recital...Courtney and Maria you were aweeeeeeeeeeeesome! I don't know how I'm going to leave that place. Its not fair. Now i'm going out for coffee with Kerri and I'll see everyone at the music theater performance tomorrow...I'm bracing myself.

Adio!

Ps--> Today I woke up to beautiful sunshine in my nice clean room at 10 30 am!!!! I haven't 'slept in' for a month and a half!!!!!!

HeLLo

2005-05-24T03:24:50Z

So how is everyone on this fine-freaking-cold-evening??? I'm............cold. I've done absolutely nothing with myself today, though I had plenty that needed to be done...But thats the story of my life now isn't it!!! Well I did get a new diva ring that is RIDICULOUSLY huge and a pair of sunglasses and capris but thats nothing knew either. We have like 12 days of school left and that is CRAZY. I need to get moving on our english paper or, yeah, i'm never gonna get it done. No theory tomorrow! Shweet! But that means that I don't have a lesson and that makes me sad :( Oh well you win some you lose some. So I was telling grace today that I hate talking to people on the phone...especially people who matter like........................cecile. Yeah she never ceases to make me feel like a retard. I was counting....awkward silence # 332. Oh well. I'll get better with time. God this ring is distracting.

We need to start senior show. NOW.

God night lovelies!

Fo.

crem_de_la_flem @ 2005-05-22T21:48:00

2005-05-23T01:32:05Z

My recital was sooooooooooooo much fun today! I loved every minute of it! Except my bassoon solo.....that sucked! ROYALY! But oh well! Thanks to all who came! You rock my world!
Kisses!
Tree.

crem_de_la_flem @ 2005-05-17T22:50:00

2005-05-18T02:45:46Z

Theresa = mildly agitated.
No...Very agitated.

First of all let me start by saying that theory puts me in the worst mood EVER. God! it just pisses me off because its like a domino effect...I'm so happy when i'm done with my lesson then I go up there and know that for a full hour I have to sit there and feel like a complete idiot. Then I'm afraid that my pissy moods put people off and make it seem like I dislike them....or that i'm a bitch....neither of which is true.
Still the worst part about this seemingly endless bad mood is the fact that I feel like i'm in purgatory. I can't WAIT to get out of avon....but to tell you the truth, I don't want to go to Ithaca. Its a great school don't get me wrong...Its just not what I want and there's no other way to put it. Everyone is so freakin excited about next year and well......i'm not. How unfair is that.

I'm out.

Beautiful Weather

2005-05-12T01:20:56Z

Hello Lovlies!!!

So I don't know about anyone else but I have been LOVING the weather for the past two days! Its so sunny and warm and flowery! God, I sound pathetic. But its true!!! Prom was freakin awesome I had SUCH a good time and my dearest Anna is the prom queen...How happy I was. I've come to discover that I have a very bad shopping problem. Meaning--I never stop. Senior trip on Friday beyotches!!! I'm freakin excited!!! WOOTWOOT.

For your listening pleasure!!! ::clears throat::

2005-05-04T01:37:24Z

~My boyfriend's name is mello
He lives in the land of Jello
With a cherry for his nose
And pickles for his toes
And thats the way my story goes!~

-->Dickery, dickery dare,
The pig flew up in the air.
The man in brown
Soon brought him down!
Dickery, dickery, dare.<--

Hello Kitty
Sang a ditty
But I fear it wasn't
Pretty

They oo'd and aahh'd
With much applaud
But in the end
They thought it odd

For she looked at the sky
As if to try
To kill the buzz
Of an annoying fly

If that is so
Than she must know
Why WE watch HER
All bouncing too and fro

A new nursery rhyme about my least favorite stuffed animal.

Ithaca is............COLD.

2005-04-29T01:57:01Z

Well I just returned from a journey to my home for the next four years...Scary isn't it? Its very strange because I thought it would really excite me ya know? Like get me pumped for leaving--as if i could be anymore pumped. But it kind of did the opposite... I think maybe its because I wasn't with my usual crowd of people. I need a diversification. I refuse to hole myself up in the music building and never come out. I want to meet a crap load of people who are cool and worth talking too. The other thing that sucks is the fact that its not lookin like i'm going to be getting a job. Because a music student can end up taking like 13 classes as opposed to the normal 7 or something like that--i'm not really sure i wasn't paying attention. ANYWAYS! I won't have anytime but i NEED MONEY! GAH! The trip made me miss Eastman terribly. Maybe after I sleep in my own bed I will be able to think clearly. My head feels all jumbled around.

WTF.

Reasons WE want to leave....

2005-04-21T00:31:50Z

This was a list compiled today during school and a certain someone suggested I post in on LJ just for kicks so here it goes!

Parents who are always telling me to go to bed
Making me come home
Telling me how long I've been in the shower
Yelling at me for sleeping on the couch
Getting all up in my business
Giving me the "what are you doing with your life" speeches
Feeling like they are always RIGHT behind you
Telling me when its okay to turn at an intersection
Telling me to start stopping sooner at stop signs
Making me feel guilty for not being home
Asking me why I'm not doing any homework
Wanting me to do something just because you've been "sitting around for a long time"
Asking me if I've returned my calls
Giving me the guilt trip about money
Telling me I can't go outside with out sun screen
Talking about grades, school, and homework
Teachers giving out busy work
Bias teachers
Missing 5 days of school and having your parents say you've missed too many
Stupid classes
Suck-ups
Negotiating grades
Not doing anything in any classes but still having to go to school
Knowing you don't need this anymore
Knowing that if you didn't do anything it still wouldn't matter
Parents treating me like I'm 5 and thinking I will regress because of this
Claustrophobia
Rules that are simply there to make people feel that they have authority
I don't need at *#@$!&~ hall pass to go someplace (especially the bathroom)!
Telling me to shave
Telling me to get a hair cut
UNDERCLASSMEN (not all of you don't worry)
Having every minute of class planned out
Small mindedness
High School Drama! ACK!
Getting out of my lovely bed every morning
Wasting 6 hours of my life
Eating crappy lunches
Uncultured-ness
Having to clean up after my family
Getting the parental "guilt trip"
Feeling like I CAN'T BREATH everyday !
Getting homework I never do
Leaving and knowing I have to come back the next day
Sunday Nights
People who think they are bad ass and ghetto--this is AVON people! A-V-O-N!!!
My parents jealousy and cluelessness
Waiting until 5th period to drink my diet coke
People who stand in the MIDDLE of the hall to talk
Dumbing everything down
Saying they called when they actually didn't
People who are full of it ( it= themselves= shit)
Lockers
Gym class and the physical fitness test
THE SCHOOL POOL
High school girls
The feeling that college is being held in front of you... Hanging from a stick held by everything that you've ever fought against
People that act smarter than they are
People with huge mouths
People who can't speak simple English
People who have a personal story to go with EVERYTHING
Going to Eastman
Everything consists of doing nothing
This town is cursed
I do the same thing everyday: sleep and wait for lunch
Talking about college

Have anything else???? I'm sure you do. Feel free to add! (Believe me, it'll make you feel better!)

For Real Real

2005-04-17T22:22:21Z

I have nothing useful to say...only that I won a thousand dollars...and I suppose thats pretty cool.

Back on the slightly less dark side of life

2005-04-14T00:28:30Z

Leiah and I went walking today and it was quite nice...We stoped at the St. Agnes playground and I kept telling her all these stories about when I went there...And it just really hit me. Wh-am. I'm going to college next year... I was talking about when i was 7 and the kid who pissed in the tire and my best friend who was a fat boy...and I was like "Holy shit--that is all gone. And i'm going to college. Crazy. But i am so very very excited.

crem_de_la_flem @ 2005-04-11T21:47:00

2005-04-12T01:33:32Z

Its the worst thing in the world to find out that you're not what you thought you were...and for the smallest moment the world seems to lose its sparkle...it comes back but you realize that it wasn't real and you were living a lie the whole time. I think my hearts actually broken...yup...its missing a hinge.

Don't mind my emo-ness...I just needed to get it out.

Je Suis Tatania!!!

2005-04-10T23:58:13Z

Hello my darlings! So its been a pretty swell weekend! I went to see Chicago on Saturday night, and surprisingly enough it was really really good! Paige Davis isn't half as bad as I expected her to be! Yes, I can definitely see her doing
marvolously in Beauty & the Beast but she wasn't gutsy enough to really do justice to Roxy. I also saw Godspell...Hmmm what else??? Oh! I found a lovely little yellow purse at Target and a freakin SWEET jacket...Now I have to figure out when to sneak away and buy them...> given the fact that if my mother catches me buying another purse or coat she'll kill me and feed me to the wild hounds...But thats no matter! A girls got to do what a girls got to do! (Especially for her accesories!) This voice competition is coming up pretty damn fast....I've decided that....I'm gonna win. Yeah...I think so. Hahaha. And i'm gonna be sexy as hell! (Take that Cecile.) ::sticks out toungue:: Why do >I< always get stuck singing the songs where I have to be all "come hither-ish" ? Further more how is singing about trees,the wind, and rivers supposed to be "hot"??? Yeah, I don't know, maybe its better just to leave it alone. I don't want to go to school tomorrow...I just want to sit around an enjoy the sunshine. Damn the system! I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well I have to go finish my homework...too bad I only do it when the marking period is closing. Hey! That means we only have ten weeks left! SHWEET!

Ah-HAHAHA!

2005-04-09T15:41:08Z

You are a Soprano... The true diva. Life revolves
around you and only you. You've got the high
notes they pay for and you hold the world in
the palm of your hand.

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> This makes my heart happy

Crazy beautiful

2005-04-09T15:08:17Z

Sigh....I love spring. Its like being reborn in Christ!

Don't worry just kidding. But I do love spring we've had so many nice days and I don't even mind the rain...just as long as its not snow! Took a little road trip downtown yesterday it was quite amusing I also found out that Spot is accepting applications....If gas wasn't so damn expensive I'd do it. Working there would be the shiz. I do need a job though one that doesn't require couting bottles OR beans. Divas can't be poor--it just doesn't work that way. How many days until we graduate??? Too many. The only draw back to all this b-e-a-utiful weather is the fact that it gets me thinking about Summer. Summer is going to kick major ass. I want a reuben.

I love you all.

PS Courtney I'm SO sorry I couldn't come to your show! It was my cousin's birthday and I totally forgot! I LOVE YOU DAHLING AND I'M SURE YOU WERE STUNNING!

As the world slowly turns...

2005-04-07T22:35:33Z

Who got into Ithaca??? THERESA GOT INTO ITHACA!!! WOOT! WOOT!

crem_de_la_flem @ 2005-04-06T16:03:00

2005-04-06T19:47:50Z

I can't stand waiting anymore! I'm going CRAZY! And I still have a week left! OMG!
Theresa = want to get into college.

crem_de_la_flem @ 2005-04-05T20:45:00

2005-04-06T00:28:50Z

Am I good enough?

He said spring was on her way.....

2005-03-26T18:11:48Z

Spent last night with my lover Courtney...it was quite the date. We went to India House which totally put that little India Cafe to shame. Maybe now I can do a positive review for Journalism. We then proceeded to miss our first choice movie at the Little but not to worry JAVA'S TO THE RESCUE! They had music--they were actually pretty good I kind of wish we could have stayed longer....maybe met some one worth talking to...Who knows. Anyways! We saw "The Sea Inside" and I'm telling you EVERYONE should see this movie! It is so good and fits in with the whole Terri Shiavo case.
Oh how I wish I could spend all my time with people i love. ::Sigh:: Tomorrows Easter...Time to break out my bonnet.

Fuck the system

2005-03-13T20:27:40Z

College is the BIGGEST pain in the ASS--EVER! God this finacial aid stuff pisses me off. I have no clue what has to be in when or where. GAH! ::deepbreath:: So........I was supposed to go audition at U. Cincinnati this weekend but i was so god aweful sick that i couldn't go. I felt like a HUGE whinner but when CECILE told me not to go--well then I knew I really shouldn't. So instead of a 9 hour drive to Cincinnati we took a half hour drive to the doctors office only to find out that the medicine they gave me wasn't doing SHIT and now I have a sinus infection, virus, AND a double ear infection! YES! What more can I ask for?!?!?! I literally had to move out of my house friday because its so dusty that i couldn't breath...I started to feel better but now i'm home again and am HACKING UP A LUNG! Which makes me feel really bad because my mom and dad tried to clean up so the dust wouldn't bother me....Anyways, since i couldnt' go this weekend they were kind enough to schedule me for a regional audition in NYC on Wed. So NYC here i come! Healthy or not.